Don't Rain On My Parade.

What a day.

I feel like I am on a bipolar roller-coaster of emotion. I was told today that my OB/GYN here in Seattle will not help me get free medication. Pardon my French here, but what a freaking jackass! Citing that he doesn't want to take the insurance risk and that people die from this medication without monitoring.( I am going to Europe not some third world don't drink the water place ) Blah blah blah... Merry Christmas to you too you uninformed un-compassionate baboons ass.

A day like this needs Barbra Streisand. I got my fix through the last episode of 'Glee'.. how fitting that she sings "Don't Rain On my Parade" and then the cast sings "You can't always get what you want"

Seriously.. tears in my eyes watching the clip. It felt very serendipitous.

The headache of free medication!

So, the IVF company I am working with filled me in on a little known fertility miracle, FREE MEDICATION! Everyone knows that IVF is super expensive but it's not just the procedure that is expensive, the medication also costs an arm and leg. There is a company called Serono that makes fertility drugs. Instead of throwing away medication that is close to expiration they have a compassionate care program and qualifying couples can apply for them. Pretty amazing! Right now I am knee deep in trying to get my infertile hands on them. Just applying to this company is giving me enough anxiety and stress that I will now need their migraine drugs! Sure this whole thing wouldn't be so much work if I wasn't going overseas to have IVF done. I must have my local OB/GYN on board, basically writing a prescription for me w/o really being my fertility doctor and then he also has to accept the medication when it arrives. Jeeez!!! So right now I am waiting to see if my OB/GYN will be on board with this craziness ( I wrote him a very convincing and sobbed filled letter on Friday ) and also the compassionate care program is checking to make sure I don't have insurance that covers infertility. Fingers crossed both happen and then I can start the up hill battle of the application process. My IVF company suggested including an essay on how hard financially and emotionally infertility has been for me. In hopes that conveniences them to give me the medication. Maybe I should just link my blog to the application. =)

Celine Dion

I was flipping the channels last night waiting for 'So You Think You Can Dance' & 'Glee' to come on and ended up watching the last part of 'Access Hollywood'. They were interviewing Celine Dion who has been open about going through IVF to conceive her first child and had recently begun trying again and so far has failed. I am really impressed by her. First, it's amazing a celebrity would even talk about IVF. So many of them want the world to think that after forty having twins is normal, little do they know they aren't fooling women like me in the infertility race. We know how they had those babies! But secondly, I was really touched at how she told her son how he was a fighter, being a child from IVF he won the race. It was really sweet and made me tear up.

I found the interview if you want to view it :



Also Celine worked with famed baby photograhper Anne Geddes and did an album called Miracle. I love Anne Geddes work and the video below is the song Miracle. The last picture is of Celine's son with butterfly wings on.

How many miles does it take to make a baby?

Well, it looks like its all becoming very official. We are booking our tickets tonight with Air France! We are able to use our miles and get two round-trip tickets! Yay!!
My husband and I were playing around on the laptop last night looking at all the wonderful places to visit while we are there. Unfortunately it will be in the dead of winter and all the castles and attractions will be closed until Spring but I think we will still be able to have a great time. Just need to pack very warm apparel. I am thinking huge coat, stocking cap, gloves and those little hand warmers we would use during my sisters early morning soccer games. My Mom is still on board with joining us half way through the trip. That way my husband can get back to work. I am hoping there are a couple days were her visit over laps with his that way if I am not feeling well enough to go out they will have each other. My husband said he would love to take my Mom on date in the Czech Republic!

It helps to have a date set. Gives it more validity in a way. It's really happening. Now I have to fill out a huge stack of medical records/questionnaires and send those off along with our deposit.