Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Feelings Hurt.

I get together with my mommy friends a lot during the week. It's fun to get together, share stories, ask advice, laugh and just get out of the house. It's an amazing support group and I am lucky to have found them.

But after leaving a meeting this week I got in my car and started to cry. My feelings were hurt. My infertile feelings had their heart broken. And it's crazy that they still can be broken even after my success.

Again, my new friends were talking about when they were going to try for baby number two. And with absolute certainty they knew they would get pregnant. Not only would they get pregnant they knew what month they would. How could they be so sure about this? Because it worked for their first baby. One mother boosted about how she got off the pill and the next week she was pregnant. Or another added she knows the moment she's ovulating. I heard statements like this: "We are getting pregnant in January so we can have a September baby."

I got in the car after listening to that conversation and cried. My feelings were hurt because I was jealous. I was jealous of their conviction, their ease for their first baby and I was jealous they were having more babies. I started getting sad for all my blog friends who are still in the throws off infertility and for those having adoption issues. So many childless mothers out there unable to make statements like these ladies could.

I just wish every woman could be so certain.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Getting To Know You

If you were to peek inside my head you see a movie musical. Everyday a word or a phrase will have my memory bank search for a song in a musical and off I go either singing in my head or usually singing out loud. My family and friends will testify to this. It's strange but I am just wired this way.

So while Jules was sleeping in my arms I started thinking... I am really getting good at reading her cues. I think I may have some sort of grip on her personality. Which then triggered the musical 'The King and I' and the song Getting to Know You. Music below:

There are certain things that Jules must have:

*She must be asleep by 8pm or Rosemary's baby comes out.

*After sleeping for 11 hours she must eat IMMEDIATELY, do not pass go, don't collect $200 get that girl a bottle. Don't even think about changing her diaper first, she wants food!

*Jules will need a nap one hour after waking up. Doesn't matter if she woke at 6am or 7am, one hour from the moment she woke up, she needs to nap

*She wants to cuddle. She wants to curl up on my chest and hold my hand.

*If your holding her, she wants eye contact. She loves to 'talk' and have someone talk back to her.

*She loves to go on car rides, but the car must be moving at all times. She has no patience for stop lights or traffic.

*She doesn't have a full laugh yet, but smiles at almost everything

*Her favorite toy is Monkey. Monkey must know all her secrets cause she is always talking to him.

*Jules is very easy going, rarely cries, independent (meaning she likes to hang out by herself in her crib, looking and talking to her toys)

*Jules is easy going because she likes the house to be calm and peaceful. She doesn't like people to hold her that are high strung or nervous. She's zen. =)

*She is at her happiest when both Mommy and Daddy are home and we are all just hanging out.

I love getting to know her more everyday, because everyday she shows me something new. It is amazing that at only 3 months she has such a personality. I hope she stays this sweet into her teen years! hahaha

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

say cheese.

Juliette is the cheese to my macaroni.